pengumuman nilai semester 6.
my first reaction is SHIT!! (harusnya dalam bahasa Jawa Suroboyoan, namun jujur saya sendiri risih mendengarnya, makanya keluar dalam hati, bukan dari mulut)
usaha memperbaiki nilai gagal total.
menurut beberapa teman saya "alah, BC kan masih lulus, gak apa" atau "BC? enak dong, udah lulus" atau "syukuri aja, aku D"
membedakan puas dengan bersyukur adalah hal yang gamblang.
Bersyukur?Jelas. Saya sudah diberi ilmu yang cukup untuk menjawab minimal 60% dari soal (yang konon katanya diambil dari naskah UKDI atau Uji Kompetensi Dokter Indonesia) oleh bantuan Tuhan.
Puas?Jelas tidak. Bahakn sejujurnya, mendapat nilai B pun saya tidak puas, karena yang diberi kesempatan mengulang (BC, C, D, E) pun bisa mendapatkannya asal usaha, tapi jika mendapat B dari awal, "cuma menang nganggur doang" kata salah seorang teman saya, saya pun sependapat.
Thursday, July 5, 2012
lost all my draft
including my notebook, the secret one..
all my notes, stories, diaries, and my secrets
shit
all my notes, stories, diaries, and my secrets
shit
what is the use of this?
impulsively, i often post what i'm thinking on social media, like twitter, blog, or even Facebook statuses..
but, i realize, it's not my personal diary, because nothing is personal here
so i delete them..
what i do the?
write, on a piece of paper if i have no one to listen
what if i have one?
but, i realize, it's not my personal diary, because nothing is personal here
so i delete them..
what i do the?
write, on a piece of paper if i have no one to listen
what if i have one?
Monday, July 2, 2012
4 letters, starts with an L and ends with an E, but not LIVE, the other one
result of my late night contemplation. quite freaky.
1. Once I heard someone says "common likes is a golden way to love life". but I don't think so. Because serious relationship should unite differences. black-white, bossy-yes man, male-female, brave-coward, etc. Because Adam and Eve's offspring, us, was made to associate.
When a relationship is based on similarities, people should marry their clone then.
2. While having a heart-to-heart with someone you don't expect, maybe the best way of forgetting others. Moreover, that other thing is the one you can't get. Let "other" happy or move-on. I know it's not a choice.
3. I can be very impulsive, posting things happening in my mind on social network. I just happen to like "the object". It's hard to get it while "that object" has got it's "subject. But, as long as I can be together with that "object" in a short and non-intense way, maybe I'll found my way to let go. quite confusing, i don't even know what is this, contemplate or garbage.
4. (still contemplate)
Sunday, July 1, 2012
Winnie The Pooh Quote: by A.A. Milne
These are some of my favorite quote from Winnie The Pooh, originally from Mr.Milne
1. If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you.
2. How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.
3. It is more fun to talk with someone who doesn't use long, difficult words but rather short, easy words like "What about lunch?"
4. I used to believe in forever, but forever's too good to be true.
What a friend.
P.S I just felt the same thing with one of the above
1. If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day so I never have to live without you.
2. How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard.
3. It is more fun to talk with someone who doesn't use long, difficult words but rather short, easy words like "What about lunch?"
4. I used to believe in forever, but forever's too good to be true.
What a friend.
P.S I just felt the same thing with one of the above
Things I want to do before I die #2
I don't remember when was the first time I want to be a doctor. Because, as I remember, I want to go to an Engineering school for mining and oil industry (makes a lot of money, isn't it?)
I don't know, was it my father, or my friends that made me choose it here. Medical School.
And, actually, quite frustrating to be surrounded by genius people, while you're just a little bit above standard.
I just found myself always an average student, with an average GPA, with an average accomplishment.
As my "late night thought", I think God drove me here.
As a sinful person, I think He wants me to help others, so my sin-reward will be even.
Suddenly, as my mine goes long enough until I woke up late the next morning, I want to do this before I die.
SOCIAL WORK
Many things that I want to get in lately, like Greenpeace, WWF Volunteer Indonesia, and many more.
But things get so hard in medical school. I cant get any of those.
So, I thought I will do it, when I graduate, makes my own earnings, have my own time doing what I want.
This post is editable, so this is just some of things I want to accomplish, in the future.
1. Make an animal shelter.
2. Build my own hospital, free of charge for the poor.
3. Travels along Indonesia, giving my best for better health services for Indonesian.
4. still thinking..
5. look no.4
etc.
I just hope that I wont forget of what I just type here (or one in my note)
I don't know, was it my father, or my friends that made me choose it here. Medical School.
And, actually, quite frustrating to be surrounded by genius people, while you're just a little bit above standard.
I just found myself always an average student, with an average GPA, with an average accomplishment.
As my "late night thought", I think God drove me here.
As a sinful person, I think He wants me to help others, so my sin-reward will be even.
Suddenly, as my mine goes long enough until I woke up late the next morning, I want to do this before I die.
SOCIAL WORK
Many things that I want to get in lately, like Greenpeace, WWF Volunteer Indonesia, and many more.
But things get so hard in medical school. I cant get any of those.
So, I thought I will do it, when I graduate, makes my own earnings, have my own time doing what I want.
This post is editable, so this is just some of things I want to accomplish, in the future.
1. Make an animal shelter.
2. Build my own hospital, free of charge for the poor.
3. Travels along Indonesia, giving my best for better health services for Indonesian.
4. still thinking..
5. look no.4
etc.
I just hope that I wont forget of what I just type here (or one in my note)
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